Today has been 2 months since my Pop (a.k.a. my Father) passed away expectantly. But you know what, we're all doing okay.


Today my Nan, my Aunty and my cousin came over for lunch. I went to the shops to go buy everything and as I was driving, I was reflecting on the year so far. I was driving along and thinking about how cool it was that I could actually drive now (took me so damn long to get my licence) and to most that wouldn't seem like an accomplishment but to me, it was. I was also thinking about how I was really glad that my Pop got to see me pass my driving test, how he got to see me fall in love with Boston etc. I was then thinking about the things he'll never get to see, like me walking down the aisle.

Just recently one of my closest and dearest friends got engaged whilst away on a cruise, my heart is so full and happy knowing how happy she is, but it's also made me reflect. (Shout out to Mon and Sam, Congratulations you guys! Love you)


Pop always used to talk about how he couldn't wait for the day that he got to walk me down the aisle and sadly he's never going to. I guess it'll have to be my Nan now.

My Nan is probably doing better than the rest of us actually. I still get a pang in my heart every time I think of her now living alone without her partner.
But, she's okay. She's super social and keeps herself busy. So busy that she now tells me that she will have to fit me into her schedule - thanks Nan.
She's now also just discovered her love for gardening and is even growing veggies!
I honestly don't know how she does it. I think it also helps that she has the support of us all. The first couple of weeks after Pop passed I called her every day and annoyed her to the point that she roused on me - just let me love you Nan!!


 Overall, we miss him so much and our hearts are still hurting, but I think he would be so proud of us - because we're doing okay.

Until next time,

Love Tash xx